Because I sure do. I really have to get my ass in gear at school, I realise suddenly. Time is passing so quickly, and it has occurred to me that I really have to get my priorities in order. Again, I find that a lot of my problem is catering too much to others. It's nearly the end of my second year, now, and I have to get my application in for the honours program. This is going to take up a significant amount of my life from now on, but I need to remember that this has been my goal in life since grade seven. This is not one of those situations where someone thinks they know what they want to do, and then they realise it is work, give up, and are lost. I have heard those warnings. I realise htat this will be work, and that is a large part of why I want to do it. I love what I do. I love to find out what other people think of the deeper meanings of things, and to find out what I really think. I love having my ideas challenged, debated, changed, and I love learning new things.
It did not truly occur to me until I almost lost my chance (or thought I did), but I cannot imagine myself doing anything else with my life. This process is incredibly important to me, and from now on, most other things and most other people must take a back seat to it. Fuck if I'm going to let distractions get in the way of the rest of my life.
With this new perspective comes a change of surroundings (online, at least). I'll be getting a new email and a new LJ, friends only. The LJ can be found at http://kerrie-2point0.livejournal.com/ (RVB jokes FTW). If I feel you need to be added to my MSN, you will be.
The most important thing to remember about this is that I'm doing it all for me. If I don't feel like adding you, I won't. If I add you and get ignored, I'll remove you. This is me attempting to make a serious change, and anyone who isn't going to support that, or anyone who thinks it's a joke, will be removed, not only from my livejournal, but from my life. I'm not waiting for anyone, and I'm not trying to please anyone else.